we shine brighter

i'm pretty sure I love dancing more than you know

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 07:22:42 GMT

They are short. Just watch the intricacy.

finally I get to write

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 00:12:47 GMT

Oh, all because you say.
Does she take my place?
Does she do "everything" I should of done in the first place?
Is my time up to go back and erase my mistakes?
But my mistakes translate into your ignorant, arragant, tactless
I won't hold my breath. I don't see how i'm to blame.
And my eyes are open, can yours see in the dark you sit in?
All according to you, i'm letting our world crash.
You think I did everything I shouldn't have.
I'll obviously never here a sorry or an apology.
And the cracks i've tried so hard to fill in, only seem to widen.
I won't say my time was wasted.
But the life you live is far from shameless.
Still i'll wonder where things went awry.
You never seem to give me a reason why.

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 04:00:10 GMT

How would it make you feel if I got up and left?
No reasons, no answers; just go up and left?
You never listened to me, I just pushed you on ahead
You chose to fall behind and forgot me instead

And though my heart is happy this soul remains empty
I made it in my head that you understood me
But you just filled my void and became a lie
I became an actor and was the only one to try

Now this bough breaks, and i've fallen face first
Please just keep walking as I continue to hurt
Whoever said heartbreak is always the worst
And still my heart is happy but this soul remains empty

#$ #&@ &%$..... ! $%&# @ %$!#$%

I never expected to lose more than love
But you proved me wrong, love never felt this way
I've climbed these walls and yet I am here, lonely
I lay on this floor as you pass by me
I don't understand why I fought for your lies

Now this bough breaks, and i've fallen face first
Please just keep walking as I continue to hurt
Whoever said heartbreak is always the worst
And still my heart is happy but this soul remains empty

#$ #&@ &%$..... ! $%&# @ %$!#$%

all lies

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 05:18:13 GMT

Lemons are sweet as honey. Usually life is fair.
Purple's the shade of money, and Jesus doesn't care.
Hummingbirds can't fly backwards. Lovers don't say goodbye.
Saturn has seven rings, and I have never told a lie.

I don't walk these halls
And I don't climb these walls every night
And I don't cry
And even though i'm waiting by the phone
I don't want you to call
I don't miss you at all

I'm really not that lonely. You rarely cross my mind
And when I hear your name, it doesn't cut me like a knife

I don't walk these halls
And I don't climb these walls every night
And I don't cry
And even though i'm waiting by the phone
I don't want you to call
I don't miss you at all

This is how I keep my sanity
This is what I need you to believe

Lies. All lies.

Mon, 07 May 2007 22:01:05 GMT

any one want to write music with me? cause its settled... i am going to be a music producer, singer, songwriter, A&R rep. and i am going to love every minute of it. its my love and its what i want. so when you see me, make me sing to you, make me play guitar for you, make me write you a poem or song... i need practice and i need confidence... and i need YOUR help. i can't do this ALL by myself.

i am in a great mood. but i missed clare at school and i barely talked to lakota on saturday. when we see each other its brief and fun but we never get to talk about stupid things like boys, kissing, life, music anymore. i miss the summer i used to write her emails like everyday. oh dear, that must of been annoying for her. but she always wrote back :]

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 00:20:17 GMT

HOLY SHTTT!!! PARAMORE IS COMING JUNE 15th!!!!!!!!!!! EKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!! I LOVE TODAY! GOD IS REAL!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 20:53:11 GMT

happy birthday
dear sarah!!

new paramore song.... lyrics kinda

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 04:55:41 GMT

oh no, i just keep on falling
(back to the same old)
and where's hope, when misery comes callin
(oh oh something goes here)
with your fate, you'll trigger a landslide
(something goes here)
and kill off this common sense of mind

it takes aquiared minds, to taste to taste to taste this wine
down it with your eyes
so we don't need the headlines
(we don't need the headlines)

*phat guitar riff*

everybody sing
like it's the last song you will ever sing
(tell me tell me do you feel the pressure now)
everybody live, like it's the last day
you will ever see
(tell me tell me do you feel the pressure now)

right now, you're the only reason
(not letting go oh!)
find out not everyone's worth pleasing
(wahha?)
you'll trigger a landslide
to kill off this chronic state of mind?

it takes aquiared minds, to taste to taste to taste this wine
down it with your eyes
so we meet make the headlines
(no we don't need your headlines!)
[cause we just want?]

everybody sing
like it's the last song you will ever sing
(tell me tell me do you feel the pressure now)
everybody live, like it's the last day
you will ever see
(tell me tell me do you feel the pressure now)

everybody sing
like it's the last song you will ever sing
(tell me tell me do you feel the pressure...)

*phat guitar, again*

alright so you think you're ready
okay then you say this with me, go:
we were born for this
(we were born for this)
alright so you think you're ready
okay then you say this with me, go:
we were born for this
(we were born for this)
we were born for this
(we were born for this)
we were born for. we were born for

everybody sing
like it's the last song you will ever sing
(tell me tell me can you feel the pressure now)
everybody live, like it's the last day
you will ever see
(tell me tell me can you feel the pressure now)

everybody sing
(tell me tell me can you feel the pressure, tell me tell me can you feel the pressure)
we were born for this
we were born for this

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 23:21:38 GMT

i finally got these locks cut! WORD!

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 23:23:15 GMT

happybirthday
my darling!

clare (elizabeth)
<33333333

HAIR-CUT!

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 23:58:36 GMT

i want my hair cut sooo bad. but i want opinions. so everyone... comment or send me some pretty rad and crazy hair cuts. more punky you know?! so go on! START SENDING IN! :]

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 21:54:46 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
DEAR STEPHANIE!!!!!!

i love you! a lot. <33

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 05:52:01 GMT

So. I think I'll start with my past week. I didnt have any dance. Thank you, Lord!! I had two vocal lessons, WOOTWOOT! They were hard but I made it! This leads to last night....

Kathryn picked me up and we went to Logans for Andrew's surprise birthday party. When he walked in he didnt even look surprised. His grandparents had told him we were coming on the way to the restaurant. I was kinda pissed but still so excited to see my new friend!! We sat next to each other and laughed SO hard. And when Ray said the grace before we ate, he grabbed my hand and we laced fingers. I thought that was a bit out of the ordinary :]

We took pictures as you can see in my last post! Anyways. He took a picture of his crotch, just for me! WOOHOO! And then after eating we went back to the church (there was no one there so we hang out in the back) and had cake and opened presents. By the way, I had gotten him green plaid boxers. Its a joke and long story. So he loved them and even put them on. Once at church he instantly took it upon himself to run and get on my back. Since he is like 6 feet tall he just stepped up onto me and i also put him on my shoulders one time! hahaha! It was hilarious. He gave me piggy back rides but i kept like humping him. We laughed so hard. He took me into the boys bathroom and I broght him into the girls. We tradded pants because i loved his skinny jean corduroys! YAY! He looked so cute in my pants They fit his butt sooooo well. Ah-mazing.

Then we had some butt-tag and we headbanged to Underoath and FF5. It was heavenly. He also jumped over my head and sometimes his crotch definitely grazed my whole head to the point where i almost fell over. It was reallyreally priceless!

Basically, my night was amazing and I slept over Kathryn's house afterward. We watched Step-up, it was really good. And then it was bedtime.

heres the story. i met Andrew throught Kathryn at her church. (her dad is a preacher) well, i've known andrew since like july but he was always shy and never talked much. till recently we started talking on the internet. and i've ALWAYS thought he was cute but he's a junior. anyways. this was the first time he was this hyper with me. kathryn even said shes never seen this side of him. gosh, i probably touched his butt a thousand times and he never cared. he touched mine T00! BUTTT...

i started talking to him at the beginning of January which was too late cause he had just asked this girl out a week before so he has had a g/f ever since then. and ah-mazingly, i dont mind too much because i can still hang out with him and have fun! AND im not going to try and break them up because thats just stupid and gay and pointless. word.

and he said he will PROBABLY go to the Patience and FFY show.

DO IT! NOW!

Wed, 24 Jan 2007 22:25:53 GMT

i just saw this on lakota's lj so i thought it would be fun to do....

TELL ME A SECRET

1. be anonymous
2. make it about whatever you'd like.
3. i'll respond to everything.

Happy Holidays!

Thu, 21 Dec 2006 05:53:11 GMT

I feel stuffy today. Thats really why i got up at 9:30 this morning. I got dressed and headed over to Clare's house to give her my christmas gift for her and to have a little luncheon. It was fun. Alissa was there too. Steph's dad had to work and Britt had appointments so they couldn't come. It was no biggie cause it was just a little fun thing. We took tons of pics. I plan on putting them up like tomorrow. Clare loved her gift, atleast i think she did. haha. I loved it, lol!

Anyways. Tomorrow I plan on going shopping. I atleast need to get Katie and Lakota's gift. Thats my foremost plan. If I have any money left than I am gonna grab Kathryn's gift too. Britt said she was going to the mall tomorrow also so I might catch up with her and help her get Alissa's gift.

Friday I am going to Ashleys for our "annual" Christmas party. Its going to be 3 years running this friday, i'm pretty stoked. And then Thursday, tomorrow, night my family is going to a Christmas party for some family friends of ours. Thats pretty fun, I guess. Last year it was awkward. I'm hoping the kids will be more open and not so shy, that always sucks. Its only like 30 minutes before we leave when the kids finally open up and we start having fun, Geez.

Well, i'm gonna try to sleep cause it seems that my new allergies are kickin tonight, grody! So leave comments and God bless you!

Mon, 18 Dec 2006 05:27:39 GMT

look clare, the cabbage tights hayley wore!!

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 04:20:09 GMT

Tomorrow I have a biology exam and then i am sticking around till like 12 to study then off home to die. Then friday I have a French exam at like 9-ish so thats not too bad.

Anyways, Christmas is almost here and I am soooo excited. Really, I am! Olivia said she was gonna have a little Christmas party which makes me really excited, you have no idea, lol! I love little get togethers and partys, especially for christmas.

And then! I used to listen to this intro ALL the time and i always sang it at the top of my lungs in the shower. And it might maybe become a new song on the new paramore album, that would be my dream!
this is it------>

so this gets me to where I am at now, i haven't sung in like two weeks. it makes me really depressed, like not many people can relate. it sucks so bad. i wish i could sing and just be me again. why does everything get so good and then just slowly fall out from under me. geez. and i can't even write music well, i suck. why can't i be a good writer, all these people love writing poetry and music but i suck so bad. i try to do something metaphorical and it comes out gay and froufrou shizz! i hate it. then i try writing something relateable and understandble to all these kids around my age, but no! I SUCK AT WRITING, I CANT SING, AND I AM UGLY!

atleast i can eat and sleep, kinda. i don't know, i am just really frustrated. like i don't know what i want with my life anymore. at all. i used to be so sure of my life and now i don't know anything.

ahhhhhhhhhh. eat me!

you say its your bday...

Sat, 18 Nov 2006 05:04:49 GMT

Happy
Birthday
Lakota!!

you say its your birthday
(nu nu nu nu NUH nu)
its my birthday too
(nu nu nu nu NUH nu)!

NEW LAYOUT!!!!!!!

Fri, 17 Nov 2006 05:14:32 GMT

i have a new layout. i got excited. brittany, you especially look at it because i made it on the phone with you! :]]]

come look... NOWW. tell me what you think!!!!!!!!!!!! :DDD

you know the drill

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 01:08:04 GMT

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 02:13:31 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARE!